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Monday, October 26, 2009 monday blues?more like red to me... 9:15 PM well,well... what a way to start the bloody week. 1st up,i was broke.i dont even have bus fare to go to school. thinking of just skipping it for today but then someone close told me that i should come. and for that i had to trouble a classmate to pick me up and later than send me back. aint quite bad.. just that the total waste of time coming to class not doing anything really made me feel it was just not worth it. and it felt a little bit crappy knowing that you cant just walk away because you depend on someone for transportation.. and no money to eat..how sad could it get? all i can say is more..... got home. the 1st thing i did was EAT!!was so hungry... fairly well.. had nothing to do,didnt want to take a nap because that'll make me sleepless later at night i decided to take a stroll around the neighbourhood. and texted her,if she could drop by after school and i thought if she didnt want to hang around,walking her home would be enough.though its short,it maybe be worth it since we may not be meeting the whole week. so i sat a spot,smoked,chill listening to songs on my mp3 and unwind. hour and a half passed,and she said she's be late.so i get up and walk to the interchange to top up my card since i just received some money.. she texted again saying she was on the way home. knowing that,i walk,in a faster pace,worried if she'd be there and see if i wasnt around and will get mad. 7.50.i was at the stop.thinking when she arrive, i'll b the 1st person to greet her. she wasnt there,i was relieved. light up a stick and sat patiently.. a few bus past by, and i was getting anxious. i tried lookng around but i cant see clearly as i wasnt wearing my glasses.. tried calling her phone but it wasnt available... still waiting.its passed 8.25.. tried my luck and texted her.. though it was shocking,a little part in me told myself ''i thought so''. she was at home just finished dinner. i was blank, i got up,and walk home. as much fury that was in me.i tried to not to start anything unpleasent. and here i am now. on a monday,which i waste a quater of it waiting. breaking a rule i set for myself because waiting is the worst thing anyone will ever have to do and thought seeing your smile could be worth my whole day.. so here i am,ranting this out. to whom that would read,i dont know. and saying that getting the 1st day of the week right will make the whole week going right... well..what a way to start it aye?? try make it up for something like that, because i dont think anything could beat it.. very very upset that you didnt do much to make it feel better.. you know i will even go sleepless just to make it up to you.. you know that.. Labels: never this angry...
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