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Monday, July 20, 2009 11:32 PM been wanting to write,but busy.. anyways,there's a few things i want to share. partly family,and someother things. firstly,about family, as some may or may not know,my dad and i havent been in really good terms for years,due to some past incidence. but it was changing as i grew slowly,but this got me pondering to myself; my bro and i was sitting,smoking,at his house when we were talking about dad. he made me imagine a scenario: dad,was in a good mood,preparing lunch for him.he cooked a nice meal with side dishes, he came to my bro work place,with the food packed nicely,neatly,in a plastic bag. as dad reached bro's workplace,with a sincere smile he pass the food to bro. but bro,being an unthankful son slaps the food from dad hands and spill it all over the ground.. ''imagine that food smashes to the ground.and try picture the how'll dad look like.. slowly picking up the food back.how will you feel? ''bro asked me. at 1st,we laughed,hard picturing it.but slowly,i stopped.a little tear came out from me. ''fuck.i'll give him a good hug'' i said. ''huh..you dont hate him that much after all.i'd walk away if i were you'' he continued. that caught me thinking. maybe i dont hate him as much as i think. yeah.its just the pride i guess.. funny,i still laugh to myself thinking about the whole thing. and still feel how sad i'd be if it really happend. well, i'll change, slowly,but surely..
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